Ah ha!

24th September
It is amazing what 8 hours can do. I feel like a completely different person, whole, complete, content, happy to be where I am doing what I am doing. I am totally living in the present moment right now. I am not sure what changed in my inner dialogue- but I am pretty sure it was a talk with my friend Rebecca. She explained to me her view on her stay here. Why she is here- to completely remove herself from the other stresses and joys of her life back home so that she can totally focus inward. And it clicked… this experience is not about being comfortable. It is about growth. It is about positive thinking and really appreciating every moment for what you can learn. When you are sad or uncomfortable what is causing it? How can you be a better version of yourself? What do you know, truly know, about your soul? When it talks- do you listen? When it shouts, or whispers, do you here it? Can you hear your soul over the voice of your ego? Now, I am focused on what I can give today- what parts of my being I can contribute to the whole, what I can learn about myself, and strive to appreciate.

I am ready for this challenge. I always knew it was going ot be a challenge here. Although this has been a dream of mine, what dream does not take work to achieve? I am ready to work hard and accept all parts of this process. What a gift, an absolutely precious gift to be here with my soulmate Lynn. Nothing, for the rest of our lives, can take this away from us. We will conquer and rejoice together.

Todays meditation was a huge success. I was able to close my eyes and feel the vibration humming through my core, see the color, and feel my center line strengthen. I heard the om on inhale and exhale, saw my third eye, and for a brief moment, if only that, I was lost in meditation. I was one with my soul. And although it was just a brief moment I felt amazing. I felt empowered, centered, peaceful. I felt a wonderful warm sensation take over my whole body and a bright color appeared to be burning inside me.