Day 7: Shiny new beginnings

Fresh Start.
New beginning.
Wipe the slate clean.

I get to start new. We get to start afresh- Lynn starts his dream of going to law school. In fact he is there in his first lecture, and I am here... dreaming, imagining my new start. I am allowed to re-imagine my life.... what a beautiful thing. But in some ways it is scary to leave familiarity. We cling to it, we humans love the status quo the familiar, the comfortable. To be here, naked, starting new is quite scary. Part of me wants to run to the familiar- run back to the old hospital, run to this first job offer, run back to being busy, filling days with the familiar (even if it is somewhat unfamiliar in a new hospital new job.... some part of me wants to take the first bite, jump back in, shed this coat of not knowing). Looking out into a blank white future is invigorating, and frightening all at once. This fresh start has given me wings, there is nothing tying me down, nothing holding me back.... just myself if i let me.

So what do I imagine?

First- I see myself doing something i LOVE, something i am truly passionate about (which was true in my last job, last life) but the difference here is that I want to also be practicing the type of medicine that empowers, the supports people and the health of the world. I want to be part of a revolution. I want to inspire people to jump start their lives, and be in a field that can do that.

I see myself getting up with the sun, making each day a full experience, soaking in every minute. I want to nourish other people, but also nourish my own self, my own soul. I want to believe in what I am doing, and that it serves a greater purpose. I want to share love, interact with people, be CREATIVE. I want to use my creative self every single day! I want to flourish in possibility, be challenged, but not sacrifice my own heart. I want to CREATE.

I want to work within a wonderful bikeable distance. There is nothing worse than sitting in traffic at 7 am.... maybe i could take the train or a bus? I would love to work in an environment that supported me, and encouraged my creativity. I want to be part of a team that actually believes in the concept of teamwork.

This is what I dream of in my fresh start... the possibilities are endless.