Why MD/DO?

This question has been going through my mind, over and over and over. There are times when I absolutely know why, and am able to asnwer this question in a matter of seconds, and then at other times I am not able to formulate a single train of thought. So during the times I am sound minded, and have a brilliant- ah ha- moment I am going to write them down, and add to the list slowly, meaningfully.

First, and most importantly because my heart is leading me in this direction, pulling on me relentlessly, sometimes whispering sometimes shouting, and finally I am listening. I am reminded every single day at work- every day is an opportunity for me to look at my current role, and see how it could change. I want to know more. I need to know more. I want to start over from the beginning and understand things from the cellular level up. I WANT to know all of the pathophysiology. I am thirsty for the knowledge. I want to be able to understand it so thoroughly that I will be able to teach it to others. Medicine is an art, but it is at the very heart still a science, a cold hard science of understanding our bodies- the biology of it all the science of life. Yes, I want to know it all. I know this is an impossbility to "know it all" since our field is ever changing. But I want to devote an additional four solid years to just learning....

I want to do more for my patients.
I want to open my own clinic, practice medicine the way my heart and soul are telling me to, I want to have the freedom and liberty to practice medicine the way that aligns with my values and morals. I want to base my clinic on respect- HONEST truthful acceptance of all people, and will hire staff that share my vision.

I want to be a force for change. Change in medicine, change in the way we see health, change in the way we treat our bodies, change in the way the medical school structure looks at training doctors... I want to be a part of it all. I want to have the license the title that will allow me to do that.

I want to be able to travel the globe, and sit down and be able to use my skills in any country, in any setting. I want to serve people at their greatest time of need. I want to give back.

So, I am taking the first steps, studying for the grueling entrance exam to prove to the admissions people that even after 6 years away from these subjects I have the motivation and skills needed to achieve my goal.